我得医治了 – 黄佩妮

过去因长期的情绪压抑,加上工作压力和身体的疾病(大颈庖),令我掉入了忧郁症的网罗里。在患病期间,我一天需要服食多达12粒的药丸。我常常觉得力不从心,对身边的人、事与物都提不起劲;工作与家庭都无法兼顾。常觉得自己没有用,不但没有能力照顾好家庭,甚至拖累身边人。心中也常仿佛有一股声音,不断催逼我从10楼的住处跳下去;因为我找不到生存的目标和价值了。

有一次参加了教会的一场聚会。自觉非常“可怜”和“辛苦”的我,认真的来到耶稣面前;向祂哭诉我的苦楚,并要求耶稣怜悯和医治我。后来,我发现我真的慢慢地恢复了正常的功能, 可以再次回到工作岗位上。

以前的我无论到哪儿都必须把药物携带在身, 才能安心出门。但不知不觉地,我发现自己已经不需要任何抗抑郁药物的帮助了。我也更多参与教会的活动。透过和教会弟兄姐妹的互动 , 让我整个人活泼开朗了许多。我经历到这位耶稣的真实和医治。不只是身体上,还有心灵、家庭和夫妻关系上的医治。耶稣真是一位了不起的神!

Prolonged emotional distress, work stress and physical illness (thyroid) sent me into depression.  At one stage, I was taking up to 12 anti-depressant tablets a day.  I felt weak.  I had little interest in people and my surroundings. I could not balance my work and family. Often I felt useless for burdening others and not being able to take care of my family. I often heard a little voice urging me to jump from the 10th floor of my condominium. I had lost the purpose for living.

One day, while I was still wallowing in my self-pity and pain, I attended a church meeting.  I cried to Jesus, pleading for His mercy and healing grace. Amazingly, soon after that prayer, I noticed that little by little, I was getting better, and soon, I was able to get back to work.
I no longer needed to carry anti-depressant medication with me. I also started to participate in more church activities and through interactions with brothers and sisters in church, I became a more cheerful person.  I am grateful to Jesus for healing me.  Jesus not only cares for my physical well- being, He is also concerned about my
soul, my family and my marriage.  Jesus is truly a great God.